Monday, March 29, 2010
the thing about rupert grint for me..
i'm single, and have been for a long time. and most of the time, i'm ok with that. i'm practically married to work, a lot of ppl have called me workaholic, and i'm so very ok with that. i just recently lost my phone, and i dont feel like buying a new one, because i dont want anybody contacting me so i can focus on my work.
so yeah, most of the time, i'm ok with being single, workaholic, and a recluse, then…then i go on tumblr, and i see a pic of rupert grint, and i feel so…lonely. not to sound ridiculous but when i see him, he reminds me of the things that i thought i dont miss. is that stupid?
i love everything about him. the eye bag, the stubble, the messy thick hair. the fact that he's shy and quiet, that's obvious from any interviews. i love that he's a hard worker, and he takes his job seriously. he loves his family and he likes to buy weird stuff. but he's also just a normal person. he likes golf and travelling and other little things.
i guess he reminds me a lot, of me. and that makes me a bit sad.
Posted at 02:31 pm by baz
Categories: harry potter
, oh life
Sunday, March 14, 2010
it started with a wishful thinking here
, with a comment from Raudzah saying she wants to go too; then recently Raudzah said she has friends there that we can hopefully crash with; then we went to Matta Fair
last friday and BAM, guess what friends?
WE'RE GOING TO LONDON.
ok granted we hvnt bought the flight tickets, we only have a vague idea of what to do and where to go, m scared the person who we'll be crashing with might just throw us out of the house after 2 days AND i dont think i can eat for the next few month to save up, but as the saying goes: "the journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step
" right? so we'll take it easy, plan as we go, and hopefully we can get the best rates ever, and have an even more greater time when we're there.
anyhow, what we have now, is a date. the harry potter and the deathly hallows part 1 the movie premier is on 19th Nov 2010
, so we've set the date around that. there's no confirmation that that's a set date, however; but that's the best that we can work with, and if the premier happens faster or later than the time we're there, oh well, that's just too bad for us.
so, here's to hoping that it all works out. m so excited i made a tumblr for it
Posted at 10:04 pm by baz
Categories: out and about
Thursday, February 11, 2010
no, not so long, farewell. i cant say farewell to blogging, i like it too much. hey blog, i think you're one thing i know im going to keep online. i dont go friendster anymore, and facebook has started to lose it's appeal, i mean, sure we're friends on fb, but it seems we always avert each other's eyes when we meet in real life, so what's the point? and tumblr, oh tumblr..now yes dearjkr
is my number 1 addiction, and i guess i'll keep that, at least until i dont like harry potter anymore. and hmnn, i dont think that's ever gona happen.
lately i seem to refuse to sleep. i want to blame it on tumblr, cz the time m supposed to be sleeping m on tumblr, but the truth is, i just cant seem to want to sleep. when i tell my colleague this, they say maybe i shud cut down my time in front of the computer, they say the glare and the wave from the pc can disturb sleep, but deep down i know, i dont want to sleep...because i dont want to wake up. not that not sleeping would make it any different, because m already up, but at least, i dont get that feeling that i hv to stop sleeping. because when i finally sleep it feels too tiring to wake up.
does that even make sense? whatever.
the latest american idol, season 9 (i think) is on tv, they're now on hollywood week. i really like hollywood week. during this week the cut all the background story, at least they dont show as much, and all there are are the singing. it's on the big stage, so u can see who can handle the pressure that comes with it, but it's still intimate, because there's no audience yet. there's only you, and other ppl who hv the same dreams as you do, hoping they can do good, trying to dispel the insecurities of wondering whether you're any good in the first place.
it's so easy when you're not out there in the big world yet. when all you need to do is strive the hardest. not to impress, not to compete. you just do it, to prove to yourself, that YOU
CAN do it. but i guess when ppl see that you can do it, it's a different ball game. then come expectations, then come the need to match that expectation, then comes the need to be better than THAT.
things were so simple back then.
with that i say my parting words, with this song
that's stuck in my head,
"RAH² AH³ + RO (MA + MAMA) + GA² + OOH(LA)²
it feels like everything is a bad romance now.
Posted at 11:33 pm by baz
Categories: oh life
Thursday, February 04, 2010
Posted at 01:45 pm by baz
Saturday, January 16, 2010
it is 2 am and i am still awake,
listening to coldplay and thinking of cake,
what shall i do tomorrow i still do not know,
there's nothing to buy or places to go.
i had a dream this morning and it was nice,
i cant remember exactly but there were guys,
one drove a red car and he was my ride,
i sat at the passenger seat right by his side,
he was talking about his sister then she suddenly appear,
right at the backseat pinching my ear;
i was so surprised i jolted awake,
only to realise my mother by the bed,
trying to get me up as i was late,
i need to be in office at 9 and it was then half past 8.
nestle crunch ice cream and tropicana orange juice,
trouble by coldplay on the playlist,
singing along and feeling the blues,
while browsing tumblr about "all the single ladies".
good night for now, good night for later,
i know i wont tuck in yet, i am a VERY late sleeper,
gonna continue picoult's the pact while listening
to vanilla twilight by owl city,
reading the love between chris and the dead emily.
Posted at 02:34 am by baz
Friday, January 01, 2010
the other day i read somewhr in the internet where it says: 'If you want to make God laugh, make a plan
'. but hey, as humourous as it could be, and whether or not it is achievable, you have to try right, so you got to make a plan at least.
but i am here, not to tell you about my plans for the new year, but just what i want to do. some, even I
think are wishful thinking, but some, i reallyreally hope i can achieve.what i want to do in 2010
+ plan my finances better
every month, here are the things that i need to pay: my mom, duit kutu
, ptptn, insurance, asb. this year, i'm going to add tabung haji in that list. also, i vow to never regret what i spend on, thus with that said, i hope i dont at all spend it on unnecessary stuff.
during the last ramadhan, i saw a hadith, or i think was a hadith, by Rasulullah SAW where he says to never go anywhere unless you have gone to Masjid Nabawi, Masjidil Haram and Masjidil Aqsa, (or at least i thought it says that, this guy's post
says different). after that, whenever i never fail to be reminded to this whenever anybody asks if im planning for a vacation. last year a colleague of mine went for umrah, even though her mom did all the planning, it doesnt seem like it is so hard to do, so i dunno, maybe i'll go before this year's ramadhan with my parents?
as i said, wishful thinking. if i were to go to UK this year, if u cant guess already, it is for the first part of harry potter and the deathly hallows the movie
, where it is going to be released on 19th November 2010. the thing is, if i really were to go during november, i should already start planning NOW, but since i'm not, i know for a fact that this is not going to happen. not this year at least.
+ driver's license
i know, i know this was my last year's resolution
, but i dunno, i really just dont have the motivation to do it. we'll try again this year, ok?
+ FRM exam
frm stands for financial risk managers. the exam is a professional paper on risk management
basically, and even though i dont aspire much to be a risk manager (mostly because i only know risk managers to work in banks, and i dont want to work for a bank to break the stereotype that ppl with degree in financial mathematics should work in a bank, and risk managers seems like dont make much anyways), the syllabus covers the things that i want to know/study, so this one im definitely taking in the 2nd half of 2010.
yup, thats about the things that i want to do this year.
i came across this
as i was browsing tumblr and when i click for me it says "This year, i will : FIND MR OR MS RIGHT
". lol, really??
Posted at 10:46 pm by baz
Categories: oh life
i was in the middle of writing a post when a creephead called.
i need a moment to compose myself. blog post postponed.
Posted at 08:53 pm by baz
Categories: oh life
Thursday, December 24, 2009
BIG FAT SPOILER FOR HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS
these few days; i think after i saw jkrowling's documentary in the half-b
lood prince dvd when she drew the weasley's family tree (starting at 2:50 here
); i keep thinking ab
out fred. i dont know why b
ut i guess it finally sunk in to me that he is gone. and that george is never ok, (jkr:"of course he would never b
e all right would he?"), and he is married to fred's ex-girlfriend, b
ecause together they would b
the thing ab
out fred's death that saddened me most is, that i never expected it. after george lost an ear, i thought, that's it, that's it for the twins, she's not going to harm them anymore, b
ecause they already lost something. b
ut no, she has to kill fred. she just have to do that.
why jkr, why?
imagine losing a twin. imagine losing a part of yourself. and you cant get it b
ack. thats how i feel ab
out it. and that's what it feels like right now.
Posted at 01:12 am by baz
Categories: harry potter
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
colbie caillat - breaking at the cracks
today was my consultant/ex-boss' last day at work. like ever. after he quit the company when he was my boss, he came back as a consultant. but he's not coming back anymore now. i thought i wasn't going to be all sad about it, but when he came over to my place before we went back today, and say all those "all the best/take care of the system nicely/you'll be fine" things and left, i had a tear in my eye. oh well.
so how do you pick up the pieces when you're left behind? and i dont even know if i'm any good, and we hv already committed to a big project next year. during these moment quotes from potter said by dumbledore never fail to spring to my mind: "We must not sink beneath our anguish Harry, but battle on", and "It is our choices Harry, that show us who we truly are, far more than our abilities". my current boss asked me if i can handle the upcoming project, and whether or not we should continue with it or just cancel, and i choose to say yes to continue on. because, it doesnt matter whether i am able to do it, at least i choose, and i chose TO TRY, and for me that is what matters.
Posted at 11:31 pm by baz
Categories: oh life
Sunday, December 13, 2009
i realised for a while now, that i am very bad with weekends. i'll hv a lot of things planned out, then i will spend friday/saturday nights with internet, sleep when it is 6am, and wake up at 2pm on saturday/sunday. which will basically kill all my plans as the plans usually involve me going out of the house at 10am.
but today i found myself doing a few things that i planned this weekend after being prompted by favourite second cousin raudzah (who dont update her twitter but nevermind)
. and i realised that you dont have to drop all your plans just because it didnt start well. you can still pick it up midway and continue on. even if you got lost along the way, or if you cant find the things you're looking for.
and that is how i got to order cupcakes and bought philosopher's stone today! in addition to that i also bought the pirated-blue-ray-converted-to-dvd version of half-blood prince and IT SUCKED. you cant fool me you pirates, i hv the original dvd (non blue ray) and you dont even have half of the extra features, you ungrateful weasel
. i dunno whether i shud ask for a refund or a change of dvd or something, i mean i know it's pirated so it's not like you can expect much, but surely those pirates should know better to copy the whole thing from the original? grr
anyways i watched the documentary on jk rowling
on the (original) dvd and i SO badly want to screencap the sutitles ala fuckyeahsubtitles at tumblr
for this dearjkr.tumblr
but i cant cap it on this pc cz it cant play dvd. thinking of borrowing someones laptop. or maybe i can do it in office hehe.
so tomorrow i'll do the other half of my plans for this weekend. tho it's already 4:41am and m still not sleeping yet so we'll see how things go.
Posted at 04:49 am by baz
Categories: harry potter
, oh life