sometimes i dread going to work so i refuse to sleep at night so i do not need to wake up, then i realise that paradoxical wording do not translate to reality; and i would still need to sleep. but sometimes nice things turn up at work and i stay up thinking about that project and what i need to do tomorrow and i still end up sleeping late, only i feel a little better about it.
then i think about how i think happy things never have a happy ending, and how people leave you anyways, and every other sad things comes into mind then i dont want tomorrow to come anymore.
i like days where i come home super tired or very sleepy, then i wouldnt have the energy to think before i sleep at all. that is best.